Blah.
So about the last blog.


My uncle is deing.
The doctors gave him 6 months.
But its going to be way sooner than that.
Hes doing really bad.
)=
Its hard, Really hard.

But i'm trying to think possitive.
Like, He wont have to live in pain no more.
And he will be in a better place.
God has something better for him to do.

But it's still hard.
I've never had to deal with anything like this.
And its like, everytime my aunt calls, I think shes gunna say he died. and )=. yeahhh.











Its sad.



















But i got my cell back on today.
that makes me a lil happy.
(=
I missed it.
















But gotta go.
Byee.



























.

Blah.

I'm still alive.
Trying to figure out a way to deal with the hardest thing i have ever had to deal with.
Ever.
)=
Its hard.

Just one of them nights.

Uhg, I'm upset.
Everything is just pissing me off.
And i just wanna cry.
Nothing is going my way, at all.

Dont you hate it when you have these kinda days?
I do.
Ha.


I just lost like, 140000 dollas in poker.
Thats fucken gay.
hahaha.


I need to get drunk, or high.
Something.


I cant wait till new years.
Its going to be amazing.
ha.


Anyways.


Me and Tina are talking again.
That makes me happy.
.....I've missed her in a way.

I dont HATE her for any reason.
She hurt me more than anything.

I mean, What would you do if your bestfriend told you to stay out of there life forever.
She told me this when i needed her the most.


But i dont worry about it any more.
Im over it.

I'm glad we are speaking again.
.....




GAH!.
i just want to get out of this house, for like a week.



I wanna.... move.
I wanna get out of coudersport.
I hate this place.
I really do.



But anyways.
My p-rents let me put my computer in my room now.
Soo, thats pretty cool, i guess.








Kendra came over to see me today, I was so happy to see her.
Her baby is soooo freaking cute.
So my day was aight.
I miss kendra, alot.










Im so bored.

)=

I miss my lane.
I really do, Alot.

She was going to come back.
But now that chris went and fckked that up, she aint no more.
That makes me extremely upset.
I was all excited.
And now its just, =/ UHG!
But ill be okay.

But on a brighter note, 'Im going to see her, In July, I believe.
And stay a week or two in Tennessee. It'll be fun.







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HAPPY TURKEY DAY!



I havnt posted in a while.



.... Random huh?

FTW!

Sheeit.
Im bored.
I shall, blog.
(=


Soo, my birhtday.
Yeah, it was as shitty as i thought.
Hahaha, got my hair cut.
My aunt fucked it all up.
It looks like shit.
But whatever, it'll grow back i guess.

I got completely fucked up, this last weekend.
It was kinda like, a late b-day present.
It was amazing. (=
It was with my sister. (=
So it was good.
Hhaahah.



ANyways.
My fucking stomich hurts like a bitch.

Soo imma go.
Laterrrrrrrrrrrrr. <3










.

Err,

Life's been shit.
I pretty much miss my sister.
mhm.
Im so fucken, bored now days.
Theres nothing at all to do.
Everyone is always to stuck up there boyfriends ass's or something like that. Its annoying.

My birthday is coming up, its going to be fucken shitty.
I can tell already.


I finally got Adam's address today.
That made my day.
I miss him so fucking much.
Life is gunna be so much better when he gets outta that place.
I miss my best friend. :]


Anyyy wayys.
I'm finally ALL caught up on my school work.
Grades are much better now.


I think i've found a guy, that is actually, decent, a non-jerk, a sweet heart.
He's so fucken funny, we have sheeit in common, and really, hes a huge sweet heart.
He treats me good.
:]

That's about it i guess.






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