So pretty much im hateing life.

I got drunk the other night and someone told me
"eric went to welsvill tonight to hook up with his ex"
so i was lyke omfg and flippin out and shit..
and this kid named ed that was there was just lyke.. just find a way to get bk at him
((mind you drunk ppl dont think oh so well))
and i was lyke good idea..
So i went a cheeted on him with his brother.
Im so fucking pissed.
I hate myself.
And i dont even no if wat that kid told me was true about eric.. cause he lyes alot.
So im hateing myself right now.
And i think i should just break up with eric ne ways.
Idk.
Someone help me.
Cause i rly do lyke eric.
But i cheated on him.
And i hate myself for it.


But then again he told mi cousin that he wasnt dateing me and that he has been single for 2 weeks.
So either he lied to me about--
1. No being lyke his brother ((his bro is the biggest playa around))
2. Not useing me.
3. Not breaking mi heart.
4. Rly lykeing me.


Or im being lied to.
And if that whole thing about eric going to welsvill to hook up with his ex is true;; then im just gunna be lyke.. w/e i slept wit your brother the night you went to welsvill..

but i dont fucking no wat to do right now.
cause i have no idea if he rly did cheat on me or not.
he said he wouldnt.. and i believe(d) him.
so if he didnt.. and i did that for nothing..
im going to kill myself ((not rly))
i hate being cheated on
i hate cheeters
and i cheeted
im fucked
grr
someone help me :|
i need advise