Sooo.. I havnt been blogging alot lately.

Hmmm;
Last night was fun.
I stayed up all night with;;
zach, eli, karlie, lauren, calab, and christina.

God it was fucked up.
Karlie and christina would not stop fighting. It was rather gay.
I rly dont like christina ne ways.. So w/e

Hmm;;
We were all sitting in a shed and fucking zach god nacked and hes like everyone else get naked and no one would so he was sitting right beside me NAKED!!
haha.
Then he was like alright someone give me head so i can get laid.
And hes like ok first im fuckin karlie then christina then rhonda
and i was like umm how bout not.
i wouldnt touch that after its been in christina and karlie.
And then karlie started givein him head.. and he couldnt get hard;; so then christina gave him head;; and he still didnt get hard..
God.. ppl are so dumb..
But he ended up fucking karlie.
*barfs*
And wat REALLY pissed me off is that he was getting head from those 2 and fucking karlie with his girlfriend with us the whole night.
She says she dont care.. but i can tell she does.
Like he cheated on her with 3 different girls before that night..
and lauren was like what ever zach its over
and hes like no i still love you and want to be with you.. but lets just have an open relationship..
so i guess there haveing an "open relationship" witch REALLY dont make ne since to me..?
But still.. even if you do have an "open relationship" you still shouldnt have sex and get head for some other girls with your GIRLFRIEND right there.
That rly pissed me off i wanted to punch him in the head.


Ne ways.
I stayed up till 6:30 this mornin on zachs porch then mi cousin gave me and lauren a ride here.. then laurens dad cal at like 9.. so i went bk to sleep at 9.
=]

I'm still a lil tired.

I played cards for a rly long time last night.
From like 12:00am till lyke 4:00am
=]

Jimmy snorted a mouth.
It was rather funny.

I enjoy getting molested by feet.
Hahah.
Not rly.

Last night was fun.
I was in the laughing mood.
So i laughed alot.
I went to sleep at like 4:30am
Then got up at lyke 11:00am.
Im pretty much tired.




Watered down beer is gross.


"Did your dog shit?"
Oh hahaha.
Funny stuff.
I dont even no why that was so funny.

And how about;;
Dustin;; erics brother;;
Keeps calling me;;
Trying to get ahold of me;;
He called me at robins but i wasnt there;;
And last night he called me but i was in olean;;



Hmmmm;;
Wonder wat its bout?!?!
Its kinda weird.
Cause every ((very few)) guys ive fucked has just fucked me and not talked to me since.
soOoOo :|
iunno

Its hard//confussing when--


You have some ppl saying;;
"Eric wouldnt ever cheat;; hes not lyke that:"

And when theres other ppl saying;;
"hes a player;; he used you"






I cant wait till tonight.
So i can talk to eric.
If he is there.
I need to get shit straighted out.
I feel so bad;; but so right at the same time.


Cause if he did cheat on me;;
Imma be like.. oh well.. i fucked your brother;;
But i feel so wrong cause;;
i hate cheaters;; and being cheated on;;
and it was his brother;;


Hmm..
I cant wait till this is over.

So pretty much im hateing life.

I got drunk the other night and someone told me
"eric went to welsvill tonight to hook up with his ex"
so i was lyke omfg and flippin out and shit..
and this kid named ed that was there was just lyke.. just find a way to get bk at him
((mind you drunk ppl dont think oh so well))
and i was lyke good idea..
So i went a cheeted on him with his brother.
Im so fucking pissed.
I hate myself.
And i dont even no if wat that kid told me was true about eric.. cause he lyes alot.
So im hateing myself right now.
And i think i should just break up with eric ne ways.
Idk.
Someone help me.
Cause i rly do lyke eric.
But i cheated on him.
And i hate myself for it.


But then again he told mi cousin that he wasnt dateing me and that he has been single for 2 weeks.
So either he lied to me about--
1. No being lyke his brother ((his bro is the biggest playa around))
2. Not useing me.
3. Not breaking mi heart.
4. Rly lykeing me.


Or im being lied to.
And if that whole thing about eric going to welsvill to hook up with his ex is true;; then im just gunna be lyke.. w/e i slept wit your brother the night you went to welsvill..

but i dont fucking no wat to do right now.
cause i have no idea if he rly did cheat on me or not.
he said he wouldnt.. and i believe(d) him.
so if he didnt.. and i did that for nothing..
im going to kill myself ((not rly))
i hate being cheated on
i hate cheeters
and i cheeted
im fucked
grr
someone help me :|
i need advise

I sleept with a bat the last 4 nights or so;;
Yessh i said a bat.
Thats just fucked;;
and im grossed out;;
:|;;
The other night me and robin kept hereing something squeek and we didnt know wat it was so we just went to bed;; and it happend the next night too;;
i went home today;;
gotta call from robin;;
she said;;-
"dustin found a bad in mi room today"
And i was lyke;;-
"Thats pry what we hurd sqeeking;;
Im never sleeping in her room again.
:|




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=]
im happy.
ive gotta b/f
that isnt useing me



Fun.. i love et


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